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being selfish and petty [Apr. 10th, 2005|04:03 am]
Krystal
[Current Mood |disappointeddisappointed]
[Current Music |let her cry - hootie an d the blowfish]


seriously, if there was a way for tonight to get worse, it did.

and i'll admit to being selfish. and honestly, i didn't think about my "problems" (or what i make out to be problems...) the entire time i was in the ER.

and i say "problems" because i imagine they're only there because i'm putting them there.

i'm not making any sense and i haven't even drank.

yet somehow i have alcohol to blame for everything that's stressing me right now.

except my sister. that didn't have anything to do with alcohol. just that she hates me.
okay hates is a strong word. i hope she doesn't hate me. i wish she liked me more though.

and seriously, i just want to be able to come home to someone at 4 am after a night like tonight and have him hold me and say everything is going to be okay.

i realize, of course, that is 4 am and i'm living in a dreamworld and i already have close to perfection.. and i still want more.

that goes back to me being selfish.

yup, i'm not going to sleep tonight.
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From: peachy824
2005-04-11 03:29 pm (UTC)
krys. i hope you're okay. i haven't heard from you in a while.

if ya ever need to talk my cell phone is almost always on.413-244-4366.
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